Fresh off the Press Blog Posts


Reflections on CBT

As I’ve talked about CBT before, it’s just plain hard to do.  Changing your thoughts will change and rewire the brain, as the theory goes.  And yes, it does work for quite a few people as I’ve heard. I agree with the basic premise, that yes, the ideas we have do need to change.  But […]


Despair Addict

Despair doesn’t feel good.  And for some reason, I can’t seem to get enough.  It’s like I’m addicted to despairing more.  It’s like quicksand.  When you start going in more, you just have a tendency to do it more and more.  It’s like a drug that you know is not good for you, yet for […]

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A blast from the past

As I experience more and more, despair is of the worst emotions you can experience as a human being.  It is extremely dehabilitating, and it kills your iman. I wish there was some magic wand or pill I could take that could make all the despair feelings vanish.  The feelings of despair can’t be described […]

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Beware of Despair

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Well folks, I write now.  I usually delay writing when I’m in the midst of my emotional and iman “crises”, where I feel like I have nothing positive to contribute.  In those times, I may just resort to jotting some notes in my day one journal. Or when the going gets […]


Dual Personality Magic

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم I’m not talking about bipolar depression.  Could it be called split personality disorder, or disassociate identiy disorder?  Well to the psychologist, possibly.  But the reality is clear to those who experience it.  It’s nothing other than a Shaitan Jinn, affecting the emotions, somehow having an effect on the mind, intellect, and […]


Anxiety of Allah

We deal with anxiety issues.  Many of us deal with stress and anxiety when dealing with the Quran and Islam, as I have been suffering with tremendously, especially this summer, dealing with the jinn issue.  That’s part of the reason why I haven’t posted in a while, because of the challenges I’ve been facing. Throughout […]

Live youe Life

True Life from Our Rabb

Today, I had life.  Today was beautiful.  I will share this journal entry with you, not to make you feel worse if you dont’ feel like this.  But to bring some positivity to the table, and to show you that me, as your brother who has the same anxiety issues and major terrible stress issues […]

Asif's House

The light of my soul

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم As I am still plagued with the shaitan influence, I was trying to float through a fog of waswaas bombardment at the gym.  And as I was getting things under control and floating through the mess, out of the blue, a super duper positive emotional memory came into my head. The […]

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Abnormal Psychology 101

I am learning abnormal psychology first hand. A hands on education, not even available at the most prestigious psychology programs in the world.  From who?  From my enemy, and your enemy.  The Shaitan. قال يا بني لا تقصص رؤياك على إخوتك فيكيدوا لك كيدا إن الشيطان للإنسان عدو مبين He said, “My son, don’t tell your […]


Heart Explosions

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم These days, my heart is exploding with emotions.  No exaggerations.  Emotions are from the unseen world, and nobody can see the explosion except for the one who is feeling and going through it.  I had recovered slightly from one of the most severe shamanic attacks after my in laws departed back […]

قرية نجد

Comforting Gratitude to Anxious Quran

I’m living in a prison.  An emotional prison.  And it’s hard to get out. After having an awful day yesterday, but then towards the evening, I had a positive turn around in enjoying dinner with my parents in law at Najd Village.  Those positive turn arounds just feel like they are given to me, where […]

Giving Thanks

Why Gratitude is hard

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Things are taking a pleasant turn with the biggest sigh of relief. The human is not a simple creature, which is why a guidebook is necessary to provide insight and clarity, and to help pinpoint the issues of the human condition. God mentions a promise of the devil. ولا تجد أكرهم شاكرين. […]