It’s kinda hard to get out of the mindset that somebody truly cares about you. Growing up feeling you are worthless, and nobody actually cares, we tend to fall into denial mode.
When Allah is showing me clear signs that He truly does care about me, I am affected in the moment and my love for Allah skyrockets, but by the next morning, I feel depersonalized and out of sorts, then I fall into believing the old “truth” that no one ACTUALLY cares about me, not even my Rabb (The Caretaker).
We need to take the positive signs and cues that Allah unconditionally cares about us, and to in turn believe that. Not just let the signs come, feel good in the moment, then revert back to our old beliefs about ourselves.
This morning in fair, Surah Qamar contained a valuable lesson in this.
وَإِن يَرَوْا آيَةً يُعْرِضُوا وَيَقُولُوا سِحْرٌ مُّسْتَمِرٌّ
And when they see an sign they turn away and they say, “constant trickery”.
A subtle reminder from Allah that, “Hey, they disbelievers are the ones that when the signs come, they dismiss them and turn away. They are the ones who say that it is just some supernatural phenomenon which is why they feel that way. They don’t make the connection that they are actually signs from Allah. So don’t take these signs in the incorrect manner, and dismiss them like the kuffar.
So do we actually believe that Allah doesn’t care?
You think that Allah doesn’t care? let’s see if that notion is correct
فَدَعَا رَبَّهُ أَنِّي مَغْلُوبٌ فَانتَصِرْ
So he called his Lord, “I am for sure overpowered, so HELP!.”
The slave and servant, Nuh beseeched Our Rabb, saying: Oh Allah, I am defeated, so please help!” He was so overcome, that he couldn’t finish the sentence by saying, “help me.” just crying out for “HELP.”
Allah then responds to this plea, and opens up the heavens to water pouring down on the earth, to the point the whole earth gets flooded, and the springs are bursting and overflowing.
Then Allah gave and taught Nuh the craft of making a ship that will withstand the forces of the floods, and he will sail safely, under the watchful eye of his Caretaker.
If that isn’t care, then what on earth is care? Did Allah give this story to make us feel that He cares only about Nuh? Or is the point to be a lesson for you and me, that His care is so strong and so much for us, that look at how the entire earth was transformed because of one person whom Allah cared about was asking for His help.
Are we still going to believe inside that “Allah doesn’t care about me,” and deny stuff like this? Or are we going to start opening our hearts to the reality of the situation that Allah is our Rabb, who actually cares for us?