I’m only 32 years old, and my hairs are a lot of my hairs are turning grey. Even my beard hairs. The anxiety makes me feel sick a lot these days.
A couple of times recently, I was getting more stressed and worried about my health deteriorating at an early age because of this anxiety problem. “I’m supposed to live a healthy, long life,” I think. And my anxiety has ruined my health. When my anxiety gets bad sometimes, I feel that I will die. But then I dig deeper and it strikes me, that death is a reality. I know that may sound obvious, but when the realisation hits your heart personally, it is quite different than theoretically knowing and hearing about people dying. It puts things into perspective, when you know you are going to die and be put in the ground.
I have heard people saying that death is a depressing topic. And in certain circumstances, it may be. But for us with Islam, when done properly, it creates a positive experience within us. In my case, when the realisation hit me, I was feeling a sense of awe, and solemness. A feeling filled my heart of the truth of this short life. It had a humbling effect. And it stopped my worrying about my health. It increases your iman. It helps you become more sincere to Allah. It helps you a life worth living. Bottom line, it creates some positive emotions within you. This is possibly one of the wisdoms why Prophet Muhammad ﷺ recommended it.
قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم: “أكثروا ذكر هاذم اللذات” ((يعنى الموت)
The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said, “Remember often the destroyer of pleasures – (death).” Tirmidhi
The point is, when you realise that you will die, and you truly realise that in your heart, then it makes it easier to stop worrying about your health deteriorating, and you getting sicker. Because honestly, in one way or another, we will pass away, whether it is through a sickness, or from an accident, or any other means. How we die is only the means. The point is we will die.
كل نفس ذائقة الموت
“Every soul tastes death” -Quran
This realisation becomes is a stress relief. I recommend you try it sincerely, and let me know in the comments about any positive feelings you experienced from this exercise.