It’s like, “Don’t mess up!”, because things have been going well, and if I don’t keep doing things perfectly, everything will fail.
But as I saw it floating in my mind, I was wondering, why is this defined as perfection? Where does it say that this situation = perfection, and it’s up to ME to keep everything perfect? And why is my goal to maintain this “perfection?” Shouldn’t the goal rather be to be sincere to Allah and to just try my best? I could sense some irrationality in this unhealthy, deeply rooted thought process.
It is promising that as I am undertaking this Social Anxiety Therapy with Dr. Richards, I starting to feel tiny bits of disconnect with the engrossed anxious thoughts and feelings.