I’m certain about one thing: we are anxious because we believe “it’s all about us.” We were bullied growing up because it was “all about us.” and nothing good ever happens to us because “there’s something bad about us. ”
I even get nervous when I’m putting together this whole Educated Anxiety initiative. When I am planning, or writing posts, My perfection feelings come in, “hey I gotta make this good, and this will be the start of something huge.” I feel like the bigger it gets, the bigger the burden on me.
Let’s shift the paradigm brothers and sisters.
The world isn’t about us. This world is about Allah. The focus is on Him. Everything is about Him. We are nothing more than servants to Allah. We serve, and Allah gives. Every single thing is a gift given to us. If we did something good, it shows how amazing Allah is, because of how generous He is in giving it to us. Every single life event that we went through was planned out and pre-recorded. And we take credit for none of the goodness we have.
وَمَا بِكُم مِّن نِّعْمَةٍ فَمِنَ اللّهِ
And whatever blessing you have, it is from Allah 16:53
This includes our abilities, our creative minds, our desire to do something good, all inclusive.
Educated Anxiety isn’t about me at all. It’s only a blessing from Allah, that Allah gave as a gift. Any good that comes out of this doesn’t reflect on me. It reflects on Allah’s greatness and favors on me. Allah decided to put me in this situation and inspire me with this to serve Him. Reflect about this with me for a second.
The fact that I was born and raised in the U.S., and develop fluency in U.S. English wasn’t my decision. It wasn’t my decision that my parents took me to the apple store in 1990 to see “Mavis Beacon teaches typing” and parents who were willing to buy it for $50, then I became motivated to become the fastest typer in 3rd grade, and love typing. It wasn’t my decision that all the people in the school bullied me, and I eventually developed anxiety disorder. Would I be sitting here typing this if I didn’t develop anxiety disorder? I think not. I didn’t choose to have a love for psychology and knowledge. It wasn’t my choice. I didn’t consciously decide to “realize the reality of Islam” at age 24 all alone in my apartment, which led me to dedicate myself to learn about Islam.
Where was my input in all of this? Nowhere to be found. Rather it was Allah, the Grand Planner, behind all of this. The All-Wise, and the All-Knowledgeable. All of this was written.
إن ذلك في كتاب إن ذلك على الله يسير
Indeed, that is all in a book. Without doubt, that is easy, especially for Allah 22:70
Allah actually is doing a favor to me by putting me in this position, to help others, and to gain reward from Allah. Because I everything that I have, done or any good that I have, is only a favor from Him.
وَكَانَ فَضْلُ اللّهِ عَلَيْكَ عَظِيمًا
The favor of Allah on you has always been great. 4:113