The baby cries and I get anxious. When My wife gives me the baby and it stars crying, the surge of anxiety rushes in. I feel that I can’t let it cry any longer because my anxiety will keep rising.
What does a crying baby have to do with anxiety disorder?
It seems that everyday new nuances of core beliefs emerge to the surface. Rewind back 4 years, and I wouldn’t have been able to tell you why I am feeling any of my anxious emotions. Introspection is a vital tool in examining what gets your anxieties running. Those core fears are the vital pieces of data that no other human being can uncover except yourself. So check your heart. and introspect. Examine what REALLY is the scary deal anyway…
My crying baby goes back to this old memory I had with my “supportive friends” Whenever I did something that my friend didn’t like, or it wasn’t acceptable to him, he would call me out, and insult or blame me. “How could you screw things up so badly. I’m never letting you deal with it again.”. “you got us in that car accident, we’re never letting you get behind the wheel again….”. “Your the one who screwed us over by getting us in that car accident.”
If my baby cries, maybe somebody will call me out and blame me for how piss poor a job I’m doing taking care of him. Maybe I’ll be accused of being an incompetent caretaker because he’s crying. Maybe Ill be blamed for letting him cry and ignoring him. Maybe more people wont like me because i dont do a proper job. Just the fact that he’s crying makes me fear that it’s all my fault. I’m the sole and root cause of my baby crying because of my own deficiencies. and I take 110%. of the blame.
Moral of the story, anxiety can manifest in ways you would never realize. And it’s on us to drill down to those deep core beliefs that fuel our anxiety.
Do any of you relate to a core fear like this? Let me know below.