بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Anybody suffering with scrupulosity will be consumed with the idea of hellfire. Who get’s hellfire? This becomes the focus of your life.
Because I’ve felt such a loss of faith, due to my severe despair and ocd with hellfire, I have become paranoid severely that I could be from them, for committing the “unforgiveable sin” of blasphemy. Scrupulous Christians reading this should know exactly what I’m talking about.
The last couple days, emotionally devastated with terrible disbelieving feelings, and denial, some of the most terrible feelings and thoughts burning my chest and heart, and paralyzing my mind and body.
I finally calmed down after treating my emotional state with some hope in myself and in Rahman, and I had a comfortable isha prayer. Then I talked to one of my favorite sheikhs here in Riyadh; we call him the Smily Sheikh,
I talked to him about a few things. I asked him:
Me: “Do people end up in hellfire ever complain or feel like they shouldn’t be there?”
Smily Sheikh: “Smiling…. Of Course Not……. و ما الله بظلام للعبيد. Allah is not the least bit unjust with the slave.
Me: “There are people who have become crazy or psychologically ill because of hellfire, and not being able to balance the love and care with the punishments of Allah. As a result, they have left prayer, or even commited disbelief and left Islam altogether. What will happen to those people? Will Allah punish them?”
Smily Sheikh: (Big Smile and Relaxation and big sigh of relief): “ارتاح، اطمئن “Relax! Be at Ease! You are dealing with the أعدل العادلين. (The Fairest of the Fair) and the أحكم الحاكمين (And the Most Effective of all Judges) And the “أرحم الراحيم” (The Most Lovingly Compassionate of the Compassionate) Sure, go ahead and tell them to view Islam in the proper light. Not to look at it with only one eye.”
We discuss a bit about the issue that people are having with not accepting Islam because of the punishment and loving God dichotomy.
He mentions: “Then what will we do about oppressor x, who are making people worship his picture and killing and torturing thousands upon thousands? And then everybody is free to do whatever they want. Like countries bombing and killing innocents. Why don’t we tell our countries to stop having any judge or penalty system in place for any crimes, so there can only be compassion and mercy with everybody? And how do you deal with your son. Is it only through compassion, no matter what he is doing? Or would you have to threaten him and punish him, to get him to stop certain things he’s doing.”
So there you have it. People like us, those stressed out by religion, and obsessed about being punished, and as a result of the extreme pain, end up stopping prayer, or leaving the religion, or losing faith, they will not be further tortured by Allah by giving them what caused them to become insane, or mentally sick, and depressed. That was never the purpose of hellfire. It is a place of justice, that everybody who enters it, would know exactly why. And they know in their hearts that they deserved it. But what justice would be served if people like us were just to be punished in hellfire. Would you feel good about that, and say, wow, what an amazing Judge He is?
ما يفعل الله بعذابكم
What is Allah going to get out of punishing you?